Goodbye

merepek Friday, January 21, 2011

Ehy please lah. Kau tk nk ade adik aku mcm aku? HAHA. aku pun tk nk ade abg mcm kau. Kalau jadi anak, setakat derhake and hancurkn hati mak buat ape? Nerake lah hor. Jangan nk ckp banyak. Kau pukul ibu , ah mampos ah kau. padanmuke ibu tk maafkan kau dunia akhirat. aku mls nk ckp bnyk pasal org yg tk immature such as org tu. name die. entahlah. aku lupe name die. yg muke sikit sikit mirip bapok. Ade makan utk aku , die yg kebas. muke tk tahu malu.

6:11 AM

confidence Thursday, January 20, 2011

This is gonna be a quick one. It's 3am. Just estimating it. Very lazy for the exact. Anyway, floorball was fun with atqa with me laughing outside the court. HEHE. Well, I don't care if I don't play. Nss is unfair. Never fair. I don't care lah hor. Can't wait for flamingoes. So had a talk with shanice after 2 years of not talking to her. 2 years uh? i think uh. I don't know why but suddenly , we both spilled out everything to each other. It's kinda weird cause she was talking way too fast and I was like starring at her mouth trying to catch every word she said which i did. HAHHAHAHA. so yeah. That's all. Yayy , harini dpt bobal dgn nuyul lah hor ^^ I was finding for atqa cause i was on the verge of crying when she hid from me. Bastard sia ni anak. I feel downhearted sometimes okay. But not all the time. Okay, I'm typing so fast my hands is so tired. That's it. Bye. Will blog when I have the time. Did i tell you that I didn't slack from the first day of school? I've been doing the same routine again and again(: I'm so gonna achieve all A1 for n-levels. Confident mesti mahu tinggi hor ^^ HAHAHHA. KAY BYE

11:20 AM

hehe Tuesday, January 18, 2011

This year, I feel a lot more stronger than last year. More confidence. Rather than last year.

I miss Atqa and Afiqah and mostly baby. I have coaching and atwa have training. and afiqah malay dance. and baby? mls nk elaborate. panjang sangat.

kay lah. last post. bye.

8:29 AM

sigh Monday, January 17, 2011

I'm so tired. I on my lap top just to message you. You replied late. Despite me studying. I still on my lappy. pape lah. penat sey.

4:12 AM

heh Sunday, January 16, 2011

I just hope everything will be okay. Insyaallah. goodnight.

6:35 AM

sorry.

I totally understand how irritating,pukimak, chibai i am. And I'm so sorry. Sorry.

6:22 AM

mane ibu. abang marah kakak.

Honestly, my hands are trembling when I'm typing. Wait, the whole table is shaking. I was studying when my older brother bang my door and started shouting at me. I don't know what he really wants from me. From the starting of last week, he's been having this revenge thing. He's waiting for the right time to slap and punch me. I know that. I just had to on lappy cause there is nobody for me to tell this. My eyes are so red. sigh. He's been scolding me from last week. He wanted to kick me last week when but Ayah was in front of me. Sigh. nasib. He did something something bad to mum. And mum said she won't forgive him "dunia akhirat". You know what does that mean? Klau die mati , die nazak. He deserve it. He knows his sin towards mum.

6:04 AM

I'm so irritating. sorry.

1:53 AM

listing

Boring right now. So I am just gonna list what is running through my mind this days.

1 : I rindu you.
2 : Aku rindu Nurul.
3 : I need Atqa right now.
4 : Aku sedih
5 : Ibu ni selalu pekik pekik. YA ALLAH ! HAHAHA.
6 : Saye rindu ibu.
7 : Mate aku penat hari hari nanges.
8 : kate 200 nk spend kt i . sekali kt perth . sodey. Perth lagi important dari i ke?
9 : Ngaji , penat sey. nk tdo . Ehy tkle tkle , setan. Bace bismillah. HAHAHHA.
10 : Ellina ni asyik asyik nk menang. gile. HAHHAHAHA.
11 : Ellina , kau boleh diam tk?! hahahhaha.
12 : Afiqah , mane kau? Aku ade bnyk bende nk share. Tkde org aku nk share. Kau sorang je.
13 : Dulu kate kawan sejati , sejati kepale HOTAK KAU !
14 : Alamak ni uzur , tk selese ah dudok .
15 : b , bile nk ade time utk i . haiya.
16 : Hati aku tk tenang.

Last but not least , Saye sedih. Jom nanges dgn kite. At least kite ade kawan nk nanges dengan. Jom lah. Jom. Ade org ni tembak hati saye.

12:27 AM

ee Saturday, January 15, 2011

Holo !! hahahha. hehe. Anyway , Suhaily is supposed to be here at 4pm , but she is having stomach pain . It's okay. I will be studying by myself then=( Baby is going to perth for one week . bla~ whatever. I'm suppose to be hitting my books now but I'm in a state of depression? I guess so. I feel downhearted most of the days. Most of the time , my tears is like a frigging downpour. It is so irritating cause I'll wet my pillow.

I've been asking baby to study with me cause I need help for my Maths. I have a hard time understanding a maths question. But he's too busy. So yeah. And Suhaily is supposed to come over but she's having stomach bla bla bla. I need help in my poa. haiya .Everyone busy huh ...

Currently chatting with Atqa . Guess what? I'm not selected for floorball=( Bukan rezeki aku kot .

I'm tired of crying=( Can someone make me laugh everyday=( You know I feel like someone just stab my heart.

And seriously, people who hate kids , and people who can't tolerate a an irksome is just dumb. Kau benci budak budak , dh besar jangan maen ah kay? jangan ade anak. bodoh sia~ what do you expect? They are kids. They do stupid things. Cause they are not matured enough to understand things. Can you guys stop criticizing the secondary one. You were once a sec 1 . You were once immatured. bongok sia . bongok . especially si bueno bapok tu ~ eew .

11:45 PM

Friday, January 14, 2011

EHY EHY , NAME GELARAN AKU PUKIMAK . SEDAP SIOL ^^ JGN LUPE PANGGIL AKU BY NAME TU TAU . ADE LAH ORG NI KASI AKU NAME TU. HAHAHHA. KAY BYE BYE .

-BY PUKIMAK-

9:28 PM

dh tkle tahan:"(

9:00 PM

Everyone is leaving me out. Oh wait , why don't I do the same? No no , cause revenge is no good. Yeah , whatever.

9:49 AM

I dislike you.

Hey , it's 1am in the morning. It seems that this is the only time I get to play this lap top. Other than that, I spend most of time studying. To be exact, I spend 12 hours a day studying. Wonderful. Hhhm. MY resolution for this year is to be punctual for school. Perhaps, I need to change my resolution. HAHA. Forget about it.

I'm getting a locker. I can't stand it. My bag weighs 10 pounds. Very heavy! Did I tell you I'm cutting down on my food consumption? I really am okay. Be proud of me.

School? Honestly, it sucks a lot(: I think I can change my surname to lamp post lah hor? Sue and Ryaa is always sticking together mcm isi dgn kuku. Ellina and Nuyul? Idk. They're always leaving me out. Not bad thing though. And me and Nuyul is drifting apart. I am not sure whether she realize this. Everytime I want to talk to her, there will always be a third party that would interrupt. Kinda pissed me off, but still, I endure. What's the point of me trying to fit in with people who ignore me? Forever alone lah aku~

You know who have always been there for me? Allah.

I feel like moving on. If you get what I mean. Leave all this people behind. And start a new journey.

8:54 AM

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Not even one of you is there for me. even my bf. just fuck it.

6:28 AM

FCUK YOU PEOPLE MANY MANY.

6:26 AM

its our one year anniversary Monday, January 10, 2011

Today is our 1 year anniversary. I feel happy of course !! *giggles* Which girl won't be happy right? hehe. I won't elaborate much. Alhamdullilah(: Thank you Allah (: Kay , bye lar hor. Aku nk gy ckp terima kasih bnyk bnyk kt Allah^^ YAYYYYYYYYYYY !!!! bye bye. oh , thanks to the people who wished me.

6:08 AM

sigh Sunday, January 9, 2011

HI. ANYBODY CARE TO LEND ME YOUR SHOULDER OR CHEST? I WANT TO CRY. CAUSE NOBODY CARE. NOT EVEN A SINGLE HUMAN IN THIS EARTH.

2:23 AM

hhmm Saturday, January 8, 2011

Good afternoon ! (: I feel happy today. No downhearted no more. Firstly, I miss Nuyul. I know it's funny. Cause we're in the same class. You guys "assume" I always talk to her. When I don't. You won't know how I feel. I won't tell you anyway. Sometimes, I just want afiqah back in my class.

Lately, Afiqah is the closest to me. Who can I turn to right? Everyone is so busy. When I'm scared, she's the only one I can turn to. When I got doubts, she's the only one I can turn to for now. I don't know for the next few months. But, Alhamdullilah there is somebody for me.

I miss baby. I really do. He's been missing this week. I miss him pampering me. Having all his attention to me. Scolding me like I'm a baby. kissing me. I miss his voice. I miss telling him everything. I miss crying on his chest. I miss staring at him. I miss everything. I want last year. But time is irrevocable. He have school hockey, school floorball,extra classes, apac, soccer(ithink). Just see how many things he have to attend. He rarely have time for me. But, it's okay. kan utk future die^^

Lastly, school is okay. I've already start studying. I wanna go for all A1(: Insyaallah. I'll end it here.

11:21 PM

broken promises Friday, January 7, 2011

I backspaced everything I wrote just now. I'm not excited. No, I'm not. Lately, I got no shoulder to cry on. That's all. Bye.

2:50 AM

N-levels Tuesday, January 4, 2011

This is gonna be the last post before I start on my books. I'm really gonna give my best this year. I'm not gonna waste any time. I have a dream. I don't wanna a bimbo. Pretty but stupid. If you get what I mean. I wanna be an educated woman(: I wanna achieve my dreams. I really do. Computer is just wasting my time. Especially facebook. I won't promise that I won't play lappy but I'll try my best. I still have to blog if I'm down or something right? So yeah. Let's see. I wanna be a good gf towards baby. I don't wanna sulk everyday like last year-.- I know his taking his o-levels. O-levels are not so easy as N. I'm gonna end this post here.

I wanna pass my n-levels>> sec 5 >> Poly >> university >> my dream^^ Insyaallah, amin.

2:31 AM

10th January 2011

Ya Allah, I hope next week Monday will be one of my happy days. Please don't ignore me. I know you're listening so are both angels beside me. Amin.

12:40 AM

mum Sunday, January 2, 2011

Honestly, I miss my mum. I know you guys always see your mum at home watching tv. Mine? She's busy finding money for us. I see her once a day for only half and hour. That hurts. It really does. She's so busy, she don't even have time for me. heh. But it's okay. After all, this is all for my own good(:

I hate waiting for your reply. If you don't wanna msg me, then just say it. I won't. Okay? It's better that way.

9:40 PM

not excited.

Extra lesson, trainings,games,trials,family,school. You think with all this you gonna have time for me? Let's see then.

8:42 PM

model

I spend the day with afiqah<3 dressed up and took photos. Boring much. Then we went out to eat. That's all. I love this picture. hahahahha.

6:44 AM

miss Saturday, January 1, 2011

I miss my darling atqa and yaty. much misses.

8:23 PM

morning

Good Morning people. Very hungry right now. pfft. VERY HUNGRY. Okay, gonna bath then find food. Owh, afiqah slept at my house yesterday. hehe. And she's coming over again to spend time with me^^ yay syg afiqah<3

8:18 PM

afiqah the life saver !

YAY , afiqah sudi teman saye pegi mkn. Afiqah selalu life saver ! thanks afiqah !

5:14 AM

hungry

I'm hungry and there is nobody who is willing to accompany me to eat. okay.

5:00 AM

malaikat

I've lost quite a couple of friends this year. Well, it happens every year. Everybody knows friends come and go(: Unexpected people came into my life. I just thank Allah for letting me live for 2010 ^^ yay ! My one year. I'm so excited(: Alhamdullilah. Thank you Allah<3 Malaikat kt sebelah aku ni lagi tngk aku typing. hahahahha. I wonder what are they thinking? hhmm.

2:57 AM

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